It is one day after BKS Iyengar left us and one day before my surgery.
"Yoga teaches us to cure what need not be endured and endure what cannot be cured." --BKS Iyengar
I can't help but think of how powerful Iyengar's statement has been for me through my various stages of wellness. At first I was just astonished that I could feel results in my body from the first practice, if you could call it that! I interrupted the "flow" constantly asking for a modification because even the simplest of moves were not possible.
But I kept going.
And for a few honest reasons:
1) I wanted out of the house. Though my three children were lovely, I needed a break. And it was a nice escape from my lifeless marriage for one hour. One hour of peace.
2) I felt better. Even after doing maybe half of the suggested postures and transitions, and less than gracefully, I could actually feel the difference.
3) It was free. A perk from helping the fitness center with it's redesign.
Before each practice, my teacher would tell us to set an intention. For the first year, it was simply "thank you". Pure gratitude for the few blessings I could see in the moment, though they felt few.
As my practice improved, so did my awareness. And my attitude.
The practice changes daily because I am different today than I was yesterday. No matter what body parts work or don't work, no matter if I perceive life's circumstances as good or not good, I am reminded through yoga that I have ample resources for my current situation!
I remember a time when tried to convince my teacher that I was ok to practice with a rib out of place. I made excuses and pushed it. When he cued the first "inhale, raise your arms" I yelped in pain. Then fumed as I lay on my mat because he wouldn't teach me yoga that day. It wasn't until much later that I realized he had.
Today as I prepare for surgery to repair my mangled leg, I'm a full spectrum of feelings. I acknowledge them all, but mostly I noticed that I feel secure in knowing that I have the resources to endure, to heal and to thrive.
Thank you BKS Iyengar for you legacy and encouraging example of removing limitations and living a vibrant life.
All is well.